Tuesday, November 8, 2016

8 November 2016

Dear Love Bugs,

So today is election day.  The candidates are Donald Trump and Hilary Clinton.  Clearly, I am not a huge political person, because this is the first I have mentioned anything political and this election campaign has been going on this whole time that I have been writing to you.  This election will be in your history books, regardless of who wins for 2 reasons: 1) Hilary could be the first woman president of our country and 2)Donald Trump is so aggressively crude.  I'm not going to go into details, because you kiddos will probably remember a little bit about it or will be able to open a history book.  But I will tell you a little about your reactions.  Raymond you are so concerned if Trump goes into office because your friend Hudson said that he will move to Canada if Hilary is not elected.  But you also said that you don't want a traitor as our president.  Rylie, you are too cute.  You are over it.  You have told me that you don't like how its a competition.  You told me tonight that you don't like how mean Trump has talked.  But you also don't like how mean Hilary has been.  I just want to say, I love how innocent you both are.  And yet, both of you were completely right.  There are a lot of things that adults have complicated.  Sometimes they complicate things for no reason, and sometimes the complication is to aid in discerning better.  But your innocence and purity makes me smile.  Tomorrow we will have a new president, amongst many presidents in your life.  But for tonight as I see tuck you kids in, I am happy that you are innocent and that you do not feel like you have to be pressured to choose whats not in your control.

I love you to the moon and back,

Your momma


Saturday, November 5, 2016

05 November 2016


Dear Love Bugs,

We have had so much excitement!!  We've had harvest festival, 2 Halloween parties, and trick or treat.  Zara you have started walking.  Rylie you have been doing really really good on your spelling words.  And Raymond you went on your first hunting trip and shot your first gun.  I accidentally erased all of the photos from Halloween, but posted everything to fb and instagram.  (Yes your momma is all over social media.)  However, here are some of the highlights that didn't get deleted.





I love you, scrunchy buns!!!

Love, your Momma

Thursday, October 20, 2016

20 October 2016; Thursday

Dear Squish,

You are walking!!!  Last night you took 15 steps in a row.  By the time you read this, you will probably think that I'm crazy for counting your steps.  But yes, I am that mom that count my kids first steps.  When your Kuya started walking he took 7 steps in a row.  When your Ate started walking, she took 10 steps in a row.  And now you at 15 steps.  I will enjoy this very short moment, because I know that once you really get the hang of it, you will be running!!

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I love you squish ma-quish!!!

Love, Momma

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Friday, October 14, 2016

Dear Raymond Douglas,

Yesterday you have turned 8 years old.  I'm writing this letter to you today because yesterday you were able to spend time with your dad.  I had plans today to take photos of you and I was going to add them along with this letter.  But.....today was the first rain of the season.  So that was out.  However, I will always remember your smile as we sang 'Happy Birthday' to you.  I will always remember your quiet look of awe and excitement as you opened up your gifts.

I don't know why, but this birthday was slightly hard for me.  On one hand I am so excited for you and your growth and all the new adventures you will have.  But on the other hand, I feel like this is your last real birthday as a little kid.  You are maturing so fast and as you do, I realize you are not my baby anymore.  You are probably thinking, "I can't stay a baby forever!!"  And nor would I want you too.  But you are my first baby and there are moments that I will miss.

With all of that being said, I am so proud of the young man you are growing into.  You are so thoughtful.  You are so bright and innovative.  You are very playful, generous and loving.  I am so proud to be your mom.  I am so happy that you are in my life.  I promise I will always be here for you as your mom first and friend second.  And I won't say it in front of your friends or act like it in public, but you will always be my baby.  However, I will respect you at whatever stage of life you are in.  Happy Birthday Big Boy!!!

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You're just too good to be true.........


Love, Momma




Monday, October 10, 2016

A letter to my daughters:

You two are the best duo ever!!  Today we got to have a little momma and daughters afternoon date.  We went exploring in downtown Auburn.  Now Auburn is a small little town.  There were two streets we walked up and down and window shopped and looked at art.  I love how curious the both of you are.  Zara you were so feisty, but you also loved laughing and playing with your sister.  And Rylie girl you are so helpful and caring.  I love how when we go through little towns, you like looking at all the "dollhouses" and picking out your favorite one.  Rylie you were so cute when you got to have frozen yogurt and said, "This is a little sweet treat the boys (your brother and papa bear) are going to be jealous about."  And Zara you were so happy being able to have pumpkin yogurt for the first time.  As I drove down the hill, lipsyncing to the radio, I felt extremely proud to be you girls' momma.


I will always sniff your ears,

Momma 


Sunday, October 9, 2016

09 October 2016

Dear Love Bugs,

So this past weekend (10/6-10/9) I was completely alone for the first time in I don't know how long.  Ray and Ry it was your dad's weekend to spend time with you two.  And I'm sure you had a great time and I know you both got new hair cuts.  And Zara, my darling, you went on your first plane ride to Venus, Texas to visit Uncle David with your daddy.  

So whats bizarre about this weekend is, I didn't know what to do with myself.  The house was so quiet and still, I couldn't hear myself think.  I had so many thoughts running through my mind of how I would like to spend time with you.  And what I'd like to try to teach you and encourage you on your critical thinking and growing emotionally, physically and mentally.  I have so many plans for you, but always feel like there is not enough time.  But as I am forever trying to improve myself, I hope that that act will spill into continually improving our relationships with each other.

Zara you are home and I can now sleep soundly.  And Raymond and Rylie girl you will be home tomorrow and then I will be able to hear myself think again.


I will love you for your entire lives.  

Love,

Momma




Tuesday, September 27, 2016



Dearest Rylie Girl,


You are the sweetest and spiciest little girl I know.  While going through your schoolwork I found the sweetest piece of writing you have done:


Now you weren't in the delivery room with me when your little sissy came out.  So I'm assuming that you meant once you saw her.  But that is a very sweet memory for you and I feel so proud and priviledged that you shared it.  Mommy has 3 sisters (4 including your Auntie Rayna).  I have been close to all of them at one point in my life and all for different reasons.  However, now as I'm older I am closest to your Auntie Leasha.  She has been there for me through everything.  She has shared in every important aspect in my life.  Including when you, your sister and even your brother were born.

 I can tell you that having a relationship with your sister will be one of the best relationships you will ever have in your life.  You girls will be the best of friends, even if you don't hang out all the time and even if you aren't close in age.  There will be things that only you two will understand.  You will be able to have conversations without even talking.  Now don't get me wrong..... you will fight and argue.  And at certain points, you may think you aren't close at all.  But you will always go back to each other.  And when you do it will be as if no time has passed.  Because after all, you're sisters <3




I love you to the moon and back and to infinity and beyond,

Momma